you want to get the economy moving and make a difference in education, reform health care? for me, i think particularly in my district that is a compelling message. think about what we could be doing. >> in our caucus leader pelosi has been great about trying to reinforce this that we need these measures and as a caucus we can find people on the other side who hate doing this as well. >> the big question i have about this is i've known a lot of lawyers in my time and people that work at corporate firms. unless you are a sociopath, if you spend 12, 13 hours a day making arguments you come to believe them right? at a certain point you can't detach yourself anymore. part of the problem is at a certain point the detachment you may have now as freshmen members from the dreariness of raising money, there is only so long you can keep that detachment and not go crazy. if you're going to do this for ten, 12, 26 years, you'll have to kind of come to like it in some per verse way. once you do, that desire to get rid of the current system is going to -- >> let me just say this. first o